Newest dreamer #fortsmith cathedral #catholic #nwt #nwtaurora #canada #pursuitofdreamers
KARL: “So, what is your dream? A pretty heavy question, I know”
JODI: (laughs) “It’s kind of hard to answer, before i had a difficult unrealistic dream: One world religion, world peace and all that crap.. and i find, it’s become a little closer to home, something I can achieve.
Obviously, I’m a little bit different compared to most people..and I’m part of a very small minority. Which has a bad view as it is.
I’d like to be one of the people who change people’s view of what I am, what we mean as people.
And so basically, I want to be successful.”
I want people to look at me and think I am respectable.”
Karl: “Well, I think you are for sure..I think when I first heard… I thought: ‘Good for her. Truly.’ “
"It takes a lot of guts to be WHO you are, and really not only WHAT but WHO you are inside.
I think you are respectable; for working towards your vision, you know? Whatever that vision is .. it is really cool
The 10 best stargazing sites in the world
Atacama Desert-Chile, Mauna Kea-Hawaii, NamibRand International Dark Sky Reserve-Namibia, Aoraki Mackenzie International Dark Sky Reserve-New Zealand, Caldera de Taburiente National Park-Canary Islands, Kerry International Dark Sky Reserve-Ireland, Natural Bridges International Dark Sky Park-Utah, Big Bend International Dark Sky Park-Texas, Death Valley National Park-California, Cherry Springs State Park-Pennsylvania
hm..only problem i have with this post is they left out the largest dark sky preserve in the world ..
sigh, they need to market this place better..or throw some money at me and I’ll find time to do it properly.
I meditated today for about 15 minutes, the first time in a while. This week I’ve begun to recognize the importance of it, how necessary it is not just in personal life but in work as well.
As I sit here with my Wildberry zinger tea I reflect just how hard I pushed myself this past few years, and this past few weeks. I came to an abrupt stop, burn out, emotional stress taking its final toll and putting me out of action. Until I went up North in August for 3 weeks. Around that time I was finishing a course and learning to deal with being a workaholic, my last major vice after quitting drinking and smoking as an escape the year before. Learning to cope with anxiety, stress and panic attacks that I’ve been plagued with this last decade…that really is why I started photography. Not as some altruistic way to share the beauty I saw around me..well, maybe a bit but, genuinely, I’m just disabled and trying to heal through this journey through art. or.. whatever.. The trip refreshed me, and gave me perspective. Made me feel like I could be genuine again.
I think back about how my life turned out this past 5 years. I really did a lot. I get told that every week, to be gratified with everything that I did. Published dozens of times, in nearly every continent in the world. Working with and meeting hundreds of people through this photographic journey..really, if it weren’t for the fact that i struggle with an anxiety disorder through random chance, I wouldn’t be where I am now. I wouldn’t have ever picked up a camera, I wouldn’t have gone to do a business diploma, nor a degree..and definitely not be 7 courses away from finishing it, as I am now. I think about that sometimes, all the technicalities and consequences that led me to this point now. Whatever happened had to have happened the way it did, and couldn’t have happened any other way.
But over the last two years, Failures began to add up, over and over again. Particularly the major fail of attempting to create a music documentary, a catastrophic failure. But fuck it, at least we tried. You’ll always be one step behind if you don’t try. I think that’s the important thing about mistakes - it’s not how often you make a mistake that truly is important but how often you get back up again, brush it off, and continue. Without trying I’d never get anywhere.
There were some great successes. I like to think contributing and helping out with Let’s Be Wild was a great success. The images, the stories, the people who got engaged in that little site.. it’s basically a journal of fresh adventure tales. Kind of how I wanted it all to be. A digital campfire. If I recall correctly I think at one point it was seeing 180 000 views a month from all over the world. I remember an image came in with Let’s Be Wild’s logo on it, from these kids in Africa. “We Love Let’s Be Wild” A blue and white drawing with some gold in it. That was a heart warming story to see. Nick kicked ass with constructing that site, growing it, nurturing it. I learned a lot from that collaboration.
What I really realized it was just that - stories - that I was showcasing. Every night a new adventure, if you were willing to pound the pavement and get out and about..and I don’t mean to the bars, either. There’s plenty going on, everywhere, all around the world..if you’re willing to look. Each person is their own library, a shelf with many years of tales to share. I’m just one library that you stumbled on, or perhaps one book.
Now the book I’m working on is a cool project I started back in June 2014. I just walk up to people and ask them for their dreams. Specifically what they’ve always wanted to achieve. The responses have been stunning, uplifting, in fact.. I find myself wanting to be out on those streets more and more rather than being behind a keyboard. An adventurous underlining story to who we are, and our ever reaching exploration of self and these two provinces I’ve grown to call home.. north as it relates to the grand cosmos around us.
but, really.. I feel this book project is just another step in my journey towards healing my self through the art of photography. Like I said, that’s really how it all began.. a way to heal the wounds within. I met so many people through it who guided everything about how my life turned out. It’s kind of frightening to imagine that it all stemmed from the realization that it was helping me heal from a crippling disorder. So let’s see how it goes on my pursuit of dreams, let’s see where this project leads me..and who I meet…
i deactivated my facebook today, one of the many large social networks i’m slowly coming away from and saw a blow up, my phone went nuts in a couple of hours had like 5 phone calls. text messages, people asking me if i’m thinking about killing myself.. what the fuck ? i need to have some space, focus on myself, be disconnected. unplugged from these electronics.. straining for the mind to be so plugged in to this digital society all the time.
this past month i may have bit off more than i could chew, not under less than ideal circumstances.. but after a whole rain of dark family stuff happening, between 3 shoots a day, 30 emails a day. 2 interviews a week to promote my book, keep up with the deadlines of my book, countless mentions and messages It takes a lot of time up and it’s straining my psyche to be so connected through this social media stuff all the time. just gets way too much man. need a real weekend, doing nothing, not talking to anyone, meditating on a river rock, reading a book. my career is based on moving and shaking up big projects, and that’s cool but fuck it drains you out, especially when something falls through the floor or something personal comes up. .
i need to get back to becoming connected to myself ..
find my inner self, re-set my mind a bit.
burn away all the negativity and fill myself up with positive energy from the source again
i’m not depressed, not suicidal (i’m the opposite - i want to live, i’m dying to live better, i’m literally nearly killing myself working so hard to have a better life) but man do i need a solid week where i don’t have to do anything but meditate on stuff.
kinda a dual edged sword, all this promotional stuff either your blazing hot one week or dead cold for months after
I have a secret to share today that i think may help a lot of photographers, particularly on the subject of organization and time management. Every week i write down the steps i take to complete an action or task. Say, getting out of bed in the morning. I pre visualize the steps that go into the process:
Stand up, walk to the bathroom, turn on the shower, hop in, soap down, lather hair, rinse and hop out, brush teeth, lather face, shave.
In doing so, it solidifies in my mind what i need to do before i do it, saving time. I could brush my teeth in the shower and save a minute.
The shower example is silly, but for the past several years i’ve used this in photography. I perfected the technique so far that i shaved entire hours off the time it takes to deliver images to a client. I grew so effective i could receive a call to photograph a board of director’s headshots at 10 am, consult with the client, bang out the objectives, photograph, process, prepare for delivery, invoice and bill the client & thus complete the assignment…all by 2 pm.
If you break down each step and think about it in detail, where you can optimize your standard operating procedures and visualize a more effective you..you save time, are more prepared for undertaking spontenuity, and that results in you being a better photographer for your clients : ) able to undertake rapid assignments on the fly, because you are already know and have a solid foundation underneath you to support you
Updated my #modelmayhem to be wayy cleaner as per erli’s critique. Short, concise, clean.
Someone bought a 12 month calendar of the slave river off of my website (woohoo!) I’m getting ready to send it off for printing but..my wi fi is dead !
Unfortunate circumstances..may have to wait till i can contact shaw..we’re having a spell of rainy and cloudy weather this weekend in lethbridge. i’ve been out sick this week, after traveling a few thousand miles..think i got food poisioning from boston pizza in calgary’s chinook centre..definitely don’t recommend eating there. Place is rated 1/5 on yelp for a reason i suppose i should’ve checked it out first
Oh well, only took me off my feet three days. I’m getting ready to launch a blogpost about Taiga Tours adventure tours in Fort Smith, and then set up a new wedding site and blog..and what else..i’ve got a cool teaching prospect coming up in september, where i will be traveling to the north to guide youth motivational workshops and teach photography. This’ll be a first for me & i was prettt surprised to be chosen as a facillitator for it. I’ve had some cool letters over the years from youth who have been inspired by my work, and have framed a couple up on my wall. The community support in the north is astounding..so shout out to peter daneils for asking me to be a part of that! ..hmm what else…oh yeah! I just wanted to thank all 250 of you for following me on IG. That’s pretty tight. I’m pretty experimental with this microblogging stuff, not sure if anyone reads these or just likes the prettt pics but heyy :D thx for the double taps regardless.
Had a few minutes while waiting for a good friend so i took a trip to tara and @davebrosha ‘s gallery/studio. Curious about the umbrella and ninja sword in the corner..also, am quite happy to see ‘the composer’ on display front and center..:D (at Chasing Light Studio & Gallery)
Made some large changes to my site lately..have a couple of things up so far but will have a whole range of dvds, books, jewelry, tshirts, hoodies, glassware, calendars and cards. Forming a heavy promotion emphasis for 2014 www.karljohnston.com/blog/shop
I’m a huge moviebuff. Watching “the gray” right now. Love studying cinematography and interpretting how scenes are lit. I learn a lot visually..anyone else Seen this movie before ?
Such a satisfying mental exercise..like meditation. Without crossing off and organizing my tasks in a day id probably go crazy. feels like a breath of fresh air letting that blue line fill a black scribble and wipe it off my overfilled mind
#tbt in renee robyn’s old studio in #edmontom hanging out with super beautiful world traveling performers ;D #smile
Check out the slaveriver at night in ft smith #Nwtaurora
went easier on the contrast this time. I like the natural raw look better. #gels are fun to play with but very unforgiving to retouching. in the high rez version I can see the light touching her face and four catchlights in her eyes. its interesting how working in different light spectrums increases your ability to en#vision #studio light in #photography